ATTENTION FLIST

Like I said ^^^, ATTENTION FLIST

If you're on the second page of the Love Meme, you've got mail! I mean, you've got love! You know I'm always late with these things. I'm slow but I do get there eventually. (I did the first page already, but then I got slow.) So go get your lovin'. I'm having a hurtin' kind of day and giving away as much love as I can is the only cure I know. Love y'all LOTS!

The State of Me

Some of you might've noticed that I'm, like, suddenly HERE again. Let me tell ya, that's how I feel in RL, too -- I've been in a pain-filled fog and now, WOW, I'm free!

So here's the deal. You've heard me complain about my back. About how I couldn't lift my arm because my rotator cuff was torn, only it turned out not to be torn but just mashed underneath the bone (by all the massages and massaging machines I'd been using on it because it fucking HURT!). My right arm was semi-paralyzed for a couple of months, then there were the OTHER times when I screamed about tendinitis in my shoulders and spent DAYS on my back with nothing but ice packs for company. And I bitched and moaned about bursitis in my hips, and arthritis in my "old age," - and I am NOT old! - and so on and so on, whine whine whine. Then I started falling down. Like, the first time was down the stairs, where I broke my elbow and tailbone. The WORST time was on my New York trip, where I fell twice in the Atlanta airport, twice in Central Park, and twice on the way to lunch with elise_509, filmgeekchic, their friend Rachel, and my ever-faithful companion (and suddenly nursemaid) eponine119. THAT was a nightmare and I want to say that I will love Laura and Erin and Megan forever for not pretending they didn't know that klutzy freak (me), and being just as helpful and caring as can be. And they stayed friends with me, too! This is for you guys.

♥

Anyway, that was the proverbial straw that broke the camel's back, and I got serious about figuring out wtf was wrong. My muscles were clearly going insane, I slept in random fits and starts an hour or two at a time, I was having panic attacks for no discernable reason, my short-term memory was shot, and I was going around in a fog. I felt like I'd totally lost my marbles.

I HAD TO FIX IT BECAUSE WHO CAN WRITE SLASH IN THAT CONDITION? DUDE! TOTALLY UNACCEPTABLE.

So, after the prerequisite (*eyeroll*) multi-misdiagnosises, the narcotic painkillers and the NSAIDS and the Ambien and the Valium and God knows what-all else, guess what, folks? I have FIBROMYALGIA. And the reason that getting diagnosed is such a bumble-fest: doctors think it's in our silly little girly heads. HEADS UP, DOCS, fibromyalgia is REAL. http://www.cfidsselfhelp.org/artcl_family_illness_overview.htm

Okay, getting off my soapbox now, I'm telling you this to explain why I drifted farther and farther away from my home-away-from-home, my wonderful LJ. It's because I was spending all my time in my new "home", my bed. And it sucked. I went to a new doctor last week and he nixed all my old drugs; he said the "fibro fog" was enough to contend with without fogging my brain with other junk. Then he put me on something called Lyrica. I swear I'm not getting kickbacks from the company. But it's only been a week, and y'all, I'm BACK! NOTHING HURTS! I can sleep at night! (Funny thing, I went to sleep the other night and this funny light woke me up. Confused the hell out of me until I opened my eyes and it was...SUNLIGHT! So THAT'S what it feels like to sleep through the night!)

The moral of the story: I have no idea what the moral of the story is. I just wanna tell y'all that I'm back, if you'll have me. And maybe even if you won't! :P 'Cause when I feel like myself, I'm sassy like that. :D

Bonne Fete, gottalovev!!!

You know I adore you more than words can say, right? I plan to be around more to tell you that as often as I should. I'm SO, SO glad to have spent such a wonderful vacation with you at the GFG; it's something I'll never forget. You're something special, Lou, and you deserve to have the best birthday EVER!

Hell froze over. Allie is getting organized.

Yes, your eyes are not deceiving you. I'm organizing my LJ. First I need a new layout and...maybe...a new header to replace the one that LJ stole (but it's on my hard drive, so maybe not, lemme think on that a while). Then I'm gonna organize my icon file...omg, THAT SCARES ME! THERE ARE THOUSANDS! But I've decided that I want to rotate my icons a lot faster than I do, and when I rotate ones out I won't have to cry because they'll still be accessable the next time I want them. Thus, organization ensues.

Here's my question. I'm surfing right now because my horoscope said I was supposed to play tonight, and I'm collecting some gorgeous icons. But how do you save icons that you don't intend to use right away, and also save their makers' name to credit them when you use them? Is there a nice, neat, easy way to do that?