Fixed

[alliecat8]

Title:  Fixed
Fandom:  Lost
Characters:  Kate Austen/Jack Shephard/James "Sawyer" Ford
Prompt:  Written for fanfic100 's prompt #72, fixed
Spoilers: Through "...and Found."
Word Count: 642
Rating: PG-13 for implied UST

Kate wasn’t a meddler.  Really, she wasn’t.  It was just that she couldn’t bear it when things weren’t right.  She wanted to fix everything, and fix it immediately, or die trying.  That’s why losing Tom, and losing her mother on the same day, had nearly broken her.  She couldn’t fix them.  She’d thought that, if she just got back that toy airplane, that reminder of a childhood filled with the security of parents and friends, it would somehow fix things.  And she did get it back, using whatever means necessary, and it did make things better.  A little bit.

 

Being in a plane crash wasn’t something that Kate could fix.  But there were plenty of things on the Island that she could.  She could help Jack find the cockpit.  She could help Sawyer find his damn boar.  She could help Sun keep Jin from leaving, and she could find Sun’s ring.  And when Sun handed her the bottle, Kate wondered if she’d been able to fix something else, as well.  Suddenly, knowing that was the most important thing in the world to Kate.  Heedless of moral standards, she began to frantically scan the messages in the bottle, needing to see if it was still there.

 

She almost told Sawyer, the night before the raft sailed, the night they’d talked by the bonfire.  She’d steeled herself to tell him, worked up every ounce of courage she possessed, and opened her mouth to say the words she’d rehearsed.  But then Sawyer had thrown up his walls, those impenetrable walls that he hid his heart behind, and she knew that he wouldn’t believe her.  He was too afraid, and too closed-off inside his fortress of denial.  He would laugh and walk away, or he would hate her for lying to him.  But he would never believe.

 

She almost told Jack, the day the raft sailed, the day Jack walked out of the jungle with tears in his eyes.  She thought, for an instant, that maybe they’d…but no.  Jack was all business, organizing the away team, walking away from the beach, not even saying goodbye.  Jack didn’t know, and he would never believe her.  He would smile and thank her for her good intentions, or he would pity her for her delusions.  But he would never believe.

 

So she’d done the only thing she could think of to do, the only thing that might fix this.  She’d scribbled a note and put it in the bottle, knowing that Sawyer wouldn’t be able to resist, knowing he’d eventually read the messages.  She’d told him what she’d seen.  The looks that each would give the other when they thought they’d go unnoticed.  The “accidental” touches that happened more and more frequently.  The way that Jack had prowled the beach and brooded until dawn the night before the raft sailed.  The way that Sawyer had searched for Jack before he went into the jungle for bamboo, needing to say goodbye. 

 

So she’d told him, the only way she knew how.  Because if he didn’t know, if he never found out, Sawyer would disappear.  He’d get rescued and never be heard from again, or he’d find a way to get himself killed out there on the water.  If he didn’t know, he’d never find his way back to Jack.

 

Kate read each letter, unrolling them more and more frantically, as Sun begged her to stop.  “I didn’t say goodbye,” she said.  I didn’t tell him what I know, she meant.  Wherever he was, whatever had happened to him, Kate hoped with all her being that Sawyer now had two letters in his possession.  One letter full of despair for the past, and one full of hope for the future.  With shaking hands, she unrolled the last sheet of paper.  It wasn’t hers.  Kate’s letter was gone.

End

Comments

[holycitygirl.livejournal.com]

THAT was good. Really. Sincerely. Verymuchsoyesyes.

UUH! I want Sawyer to have that letter now. He needs it!!

Yay for making Kate Cupid. :D

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

Kate's Cupid! I love it!!! :D I have a feeling that Kate will be playing Cupid a lot in the future, now that I've got to write J/K/S 100 damn times. *smacks muse really hard for getting us into this*

Thanks for reading! So glad you liked it! :D

[holycitygirl.livejournal.com]

Hey make Kate Cupid in the other 99 and I'll be a happy happy girl. ;)

[hkath.livejournal.com]

Awww... Kate only has the best intentions. :)

This is a great bit of reasoning for that scene, which was sort of clunky on the show. I also kind of got the impression she was looking for a letter she wrote, and you really fleshed it out and made it credible. Very nice!

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

It *was* clunky on the show, didn't make any sense to me, and I tend to obsess over things like that until I've come up with some sort of rational answer. That one seemed to make sense, at least in my warped little corner of the world, LOL.

Thanks for reading!

[eponine119.livejournal.com]

Ha, okay, that is awesome. I love this idea.

I especially like how it mirrors Sawyer making his big revelation to Jack, about his dad. Kate makes a revelation to Sawyer, but in her own kind of way, without a big scene or anything. In the way that would speak the loudest to Sawyer, a guy who's been obsessing about a letter for 30 years.

You know you now have to write a sequel where Sawyer gets back to camp with that note clutched in his hot little hand.

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

" In the way that would speak the loudest to Sawyer, a guy who's been obsessing about a letter for 30 years."

Yes, that's a great way of looking at it! :)

Oh, you *know* there'll be a sequel, now that I've got to write these three 100 times! *hyperventilates*

I'm so glad you liked it! :D

[arabella-hope.livejournal.com]

This is amazing...you actually got me on a 'plot twist' which makes me happy...here I am, thinking we're still talking about K/S, and then...great job, totally reworking the scene into something even better than skate! ♥ Post it all over the place, now!

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

Hee, I'm sneaky, huh? Better than skate? Whoo, that's high praise, coming from you! :D

Thanks for reading! *hugs*

[halfdutch.livejournal.com]

Ah, a very nice, fresh take on the triangle and canon. ;-D

I really like the idea of her trying to fix them and bring them together and that she's been so observant while they've been in such denial.

And of course, finding a way for that scene to make sense!

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

That scene was driving me crazy, trying to make sense of it, so I finally had to take matters into my own hands and settle it. In my mind, that's what really happened. So there, Lost writers, if you won't do it for me, I'll just do it myself. :P

Thanks so much for reading! *hugs*

[invisiblelove.livejournal.com]

Mmmm, loved loved LOVED it! You just made the dynamics work so WELL between all of them. I really enjoyed this :)

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

Thank you!!! I'm so glad you thought it worked, I'm never sure until I hear from other people. Thanks for reading! :D

[kate-swynford.livejournal.com]

Awww, that was so sweet and touching at the same time. And it really needs a sequel.

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

*blushes* Thank you! :D

There will be a sequel...probably multiple sequels, now that fanfic_100 has eaten my brain..

So glad you enjoyed it! :)

[ella-bee.livejournal.com]

Oh, I really liked that. I thought it was left unfinished on the show as well, so this is a nice alternative.

Good job!

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

Heh, a girl can dream, can't she? Kate needs something constructive to do with her meddling, and that was the best use I could think of for it! :D

Thanks for reading! :)

[ellel.livejournal.com]

Me,a little late,but finally here-been a busy couple days:)That was very interesting!
You and me see Kate in different light,apparently and it was a nice explanation of what she was looking in the bottle...
And Sawyer so needs to come back to Jack,before he is left to die somewhere!
:)

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

No, we probably don't see her in a different light, I just like to try out different points of view sometimes. You'll see (now that I've officially gone insane and committed myself to a mental institution writing 100 J/K/S fics), I'll write Cupid!Kate and bitchy!Kate and psycho!Kate and Jack-loving!Kate and Sawyer-loving!Kate and so on and so on. I'm not a pick-one-thing-and-stick-to-it kind of gal, I change my mind about things every thirty seconds or so. I think that's called schizophrenia, LOL.

I predict that Sawyer will be back in Jack's arms by the end of episode 6. Is it November yet?

[ellel.livejournal.com]

I'm not a pick-one-thing-and-stick-to-it kind of gal, I change my mind about things every thirty seconds or so. I think that's called schizophrenia
and that why we love you:P
*hugs*

And let me spoil you,but according to Kristin Veitch from "E",they'll be reunited in episode 8-9...

[alliecat8.livejournal.com]

I figured they'd be, like, stumbling toward camp at the end of ep. 6, carrying a dying Sawyer and tormenting squeeing fangirls everywhere with a two-week wait while they focus on the tailees in ep. 7. I think, according to some spoilers I've read, that ep. 9 is Sawyer-centric, so that's probably when the real slash drama will happen. So, okay, is it November 23rd yet? Erg, that's the day before Thanksgiving. Does my family *really* expect me to be capable of shopping and planning and cooking a meal with a distraction like that on my mind?

[ellel.livejournal.com]

November 23? 0_0 Thats is like forever!!!